Clover Signs from Heaven

On November 2, 2011   Today after picking up my daughter from kindergarten, we went to a nearby park with a good friend, E, and her daughter.   While we were talking about K's miracle signs, E suddenly pointed at something behind me with an inquisitive expression on her face.   When I looked that way, on the balcony of a house right across from the park, I saw a T-shirt with a big Clover Motif hanging on a laundry pole. (I did not take a photo of it....)   It was as if K had been mockingly saying to us, "The miracle stories you were talking about are, indeed, very real!!" The surprise sign from him warmed our hearts.   Today, I was actually expecting to see some miracle signs from him. My intuition told me so! All day, I was looking up at the sky.   I even told E that we might see something special like a Rainbow.   After a while, rather suddenly, people hanging out in the park started to scream, "Look! There is a Rainbow!!!!!"   Wow, K made it ha...

  This article was written and posted on October 31, 2011 🍀 Today, while my daughter was at kindergarten, I went to the store where I had this ↓ personalized Clover mobil strap holder made. Feeling very lonely being alone in the department store, I murmured, "K, K!" many times. Crowded public space seems to trigger intense grief for me. I used to love shopping by myself.... So, today, I purchased this! It is a Keychain! I went in today because the store has a special campaign.  If you buy a product from them today, they will engrave your name on a Clover motif. The green clover motif has my name on the other side! This made to order keychain is the only piece in the world, you get to choose your own stones, their color and locations, and even style of the chain etc... It's fun to build it. I was looking around the store while waiting for it to be made. Guess what! I received a special message from K. There was a written description about Clover. It read, "In the w...

  This article was written on October 27, 2011🍀 These Jigsaw Puzzles were hanging on K's bedroom wall. Thank You So Happy Do Your Best!! 　 We Will Be Together Forever Looking at the puzzles now, all these words felt like messages from K. Back then, what was he thinking while he worked on these pieces.  There's no way he knew his fate in the future. He couldn't have known that these puzzles would console his mother's broken heart. Is it possible his soul knew....? K, Thanks. I know we are always together

This article was written on October 25, 2011 🍀 Currently, I am a homeroom mother for my daughter's kindergarten. I usually do my work in the parents' room on the second floor. The parents' room has a big window with curtains. When you open the curtains, you can see the play ground right below. The other day, looking out the window alone, I saw my daughter running outside to play. I peered through a crack in the curtain and watched her play for a while. She was chatting with friends, dancing excitedly, and smiling happily. I found myself smiling also while watching my daughter play. And, that was when I realized. Perhaps, K watches us just like this from high up in the sky. He can see us clearly, however, we do not notice that. A person who is ahead of me in the grief journey once told me, "What I can tell you now is something anyone can understand. Our children's spirits exist somewhere like on the other side of a curtain which is crack opened. That place is in an...

This article was originally posted on October 22, 2011 🍀 Back in July, one of my best friends, H, told me that Tiffany&Co. was going to release a newly designed, Clover Pendant Necklace, soon. She saw beautiful photos of it in a fashion magazine. I quickly looked it up on line. The necklace wouldn't come into stores until Autumn , however, you could purchase it online. Having had my birthday a few weeks earlier, I decided to buy the beautiful necklace for myself. I put it in the basket on the store website, all I had to do was to click "purchase" button. However, I did not click it that day. I did not think it was the right purchase. Then the calendar turned to August...... Another friend, A, called me to see if I wanted her to bring something from Guam where she was traveling to soon. I could not think of anything. But she said, "What about the beautiful Clover Pendant Necklace from Tiffany&Co. you were talking about?"  I almost forgot about it. I gav...

  This article was originally posted on October 16, 2011 🍀 Yesterday, I was invited to my ex-husband's house where K had lived. K's dad (my ex-husband) and his girlfriend welcomed me in. Three of us spent a meaningful time talking about K. We talked about all the miracles he had shown us after his passing. I made sure to let them know that K sent me several signs and messages that he had met some great friends in heaven. This is the guitar that taught me Clover is the symbol sign from K. It was K's big brother who noticed the Clover on the Guitar. When I look back now, I believe that K inspired him to take notice of it. And, I found this Clover Sticker in K's desk drawer. The sticker's message says "Be proud of usual. No Speciality", which interprets "You do not have to be someone special. Be proud of who you are!"  I love this message so much!   Beautiful views from his bed room. I wonder what he thought and felt looking up at this sky.

  This article was originally posted on October 14, 2011 ☘ I went over to my eldest son's apartment to run some errands for him. His mail box had nothing important but a few fliers.  When I was about to throw the fliers into trash bin, I noticed this!   A Tiny Clover Leaf on a beauty salon's flyer  The Clover was emitting understated yet sparkling and uplifting energy! Entering into his room, I quickly noticed lots of items with Clover motif. I could not believe it because he used to mock me for buying everything with Clover. K, isn't that very nice?

  This article was originally posted on October 14, 2011🍀 My good friend E spotted a picture book in a book store's display window, while we were taking a walk in town one day. She said, "I saw this book the other day and laughed at the cover illustration, lol!" This is the picture book cover!  I laughed hard because the book's title was "Takako" , which happened to be my First Name! As we flipped through the book, we learned that the main character girl's name is Takako . She is a very old fashioned girl who just transferred to a new elementary school. On her first day at school, she sits next to a boy in the class room. Guess what! The boy's t-shirt has a Clover!! When they go on a school excursion, children are picking leaves of Four Leaved Clover!!! What a huge surprise again! E and I were very very impressed! And, of course, I bought the book! My son sends me signs in many amazing ways.

This article was originally posted on October 11, 2011🍀 Since K passed away, I stopped going out with my former colleagues.  Feeling awkward, I couldn't call them anymore.... One day, one of my colleagues, S, gave me a call. She actually asked me out before but I turned it down, I had absolutely no energy to talk with people. This time, I confessed to her about K's death by suicide over the phone. It took me a lot of courage to be honest with her. We decided to go out to dinner. On the day of our outing, I was hoping S might wear or carry something with Clover. She did not know anything about K's signs, but I had a intuition another miracle would happen. I had so much to tell her during our time together. She listened to me with all her heart. Of course, I told her about all the miracles K had shown to us including Clover Signs. She was surprised and touched at the same time. When I abruptly asked her if she was carrying something with a Clover Leaf, she said, "I do...

  This article was originally posted on Oct 7, 2011 🍀 I used to work for a large department store in Umeda, Osaka, Japan. The store name is "Hanshin Department Store." I swear that, for many many years, I had never noticed that the Store Logo had a Clover Leaf in it! Well, I was not interested in Clover sign at all back then! Today, I went back to the store to see and chat with my colleagues. Of course, lots and lots of Clover Leaves greeted me there! I may have looked suspicious looking all around, lol☺️ When I worked in there, I did not feel anything, but today, the store was shining and beaming to me! Clover signs in my previous work place..... Don't you think it is more than just a Coincidence ? Have you received Signs from Your Loved One in Heaven? If you pay loving attention to what you see, hear, and feel in your everyday life, you will start noticing messages from him/her. I would love to hear your stories. Please, please leave your comment.  Thank you for readi...

  This article was originally posted on October 4, 2011🍀 This event happened on August 25, 2011 Since the summer break started, my daughter and I have been withdrawn in the house mostly all day. I actually liked being home with my girl because I could quietly think of K without being bothered by anyone or anything.  Last summer, I could not wait for the school break to be over, but this year, I was feeling terrified to go back to normal routine. I guess I was terrified of facing people at my daughter's kindergarten. That afternoon, my girl wanted to go to McDonald for lunch before her summer activity class. On the way to lunch, my heart was aching badly with acute  grief.... So, I talked to K in my mind saying, "K, I am missing you too much. Send me a sign, would you?" After lunch, we dropped by a Daiso one dollar store, to get something she needed. Right inside the entrance door, on a display shelf, there was a small G lass Angel Figurines.... Each pretty...

  This article was originally posted on October 3, 2011 🍀 October 3 was my daughter's birthday. In the morning, while I was making Birthday Bento Lunch for her to bring to kindergarten, I wondered how K was feeling about her birthday. When I payed attention to the divider cup that goes into the lunch box, there was a Pink Bunny with a Clover in her mouth! This was the last cup out of a package, I had never noticed the clover before! K sent a Birthday Message to her in the most unexpected place!

  This article was originally posted on September 27, 2011 🍀 Since K passed away, my eldest son has not gone back to his home. He has been staying either with us or with his grandparents. Then, after a while, he started talking about getting his own place. Watching him talking of it excitedly, I had a mixed feeling. I was worried for him being alone so soon, and at the same time I thought "change" might be the right thing for him. I remember K used to say, "It would be better for M to move out of his parents'." However, I was still so worried for him I suggested that he find a place near me. M simply answered yes ! M and I visited a real estate agency near by to see what kind of apartments were available in the neighborhood. Out of a few property photos the realtor showed us, we decided to go look at an apartment which was the closest to our train station. That was actually my suggestion! He fell in love with the place and signed the lease agreement on the sp...

This article was originally posted on September 26, 2011🍀 My birthday is July 2. Without any apparent reason, my back started to hurt badly a few days prior to my birthday. Yes, I have had back pain before, but it had never been this severe. I decided to go see an orthopedic doctor/chiropractor to feel better so that I could keep taking care of my little girl and working as a PTO board member at her school. I was very busy at that time. On July 1st, I saw an orthopedic technician whom one of my best friends, A, recommended to me. I was given an acupuncture treatment as well as physical massage. On my way home, I was thinking to myself, "How unlucky I am!  Tomorrow is my birthday and I had to go visit a clinic for my back pain. K, let me know if this does have any meaning." Then, I realized I was walking on the street I usually would not be. There were many small shops on both sides of the street. An old looking stationary shop, on the other side, caught my eye. Wal...

  This article was originally posted on September 26, 2011🍀 Ever since I was convinced Clover was the sign from K, I started to look for them everywhere. Family and close friends called me  "Clover Hunter."  I would buy anything with a clover motif on it and I still do. On May 26, 2011 , It was the day of my little girl's lesson. I recall it was still very hard for me to take her to places such as school and lessons. I just wanted to stay home and avoid meeting people as much as possible.  On that day, I was feeling very sad missing K..... When my girl's lesson was done, we decided to go shopping for some Clover item. Since the lesson was held in a department store, we went straight to the stationary section and browsed around looking at post cards and envelops with Clover Motif.  Unfortunately, nothing clicked with me. I started feeling miserable for desperately looking for K's signs. We went home without buying anything. Getting back to the house wi...

  This article was originally posted on September 25, 2011🍀 When K was still here, he asked me when Mother's Day would be. I simply answered it is always on the second Sunday of May. " Come on, K! Don't forget the date again!" , I said to him and we both laughed. On Sunday, May 8, Mother's Day did arrive, which brought back the lighthearted  conversation I had with K. I felt sad all day thinking what if he could come back to me even for a day, today. On that night, my husband and I were watching a TV program called "Ametalk" , it is a variety show. Suddenly, my shoulders started feeling a gentle warmth. I wondered if K was massaging my shoulders.  I did not tell my husband about it, because it was hard to explain. I was quietly enjoying the gentle warm sensation.  And then...., Guess what!   I noticed Two Clover Leaves behind the show hosts! I said to myself, "What is going on! Those clover leaves don't go on the noisy background at all! Of...

This article was originally posted on September 25, 2011🍀 On Saturday May 7th, I took my little girl to her lesson.  Since my husband was at work, my eldest son joined us. After the lesson, three of us went to a shopping mall near by. This large mall provides kid's shopping carts, the ones children can ride. Each cart has a character on it such as Hello Kitty, Micky Mouse, Anpan Man etc... My girl, of course, wanted to ride one, however, they were all taken when we got there. I said to her, "Let's walk around and wait until someone returns a cart!"  After a while, we finally found an empty cart. She was very happy because it was her favorite Disney Character, Minnie Mouse cart! As we walked around the shopping mall, acute grief pain surged in me. Looking at families with laughters made me realize that K was not in this world anymore. I missed him a lot. I asked K in my heart, "K, are you here? You are with us now, right?" My girl got off the cart to go b...

This article was originally posted on September 20, 2011 ☘   It was my eldest son who found K's body in the house when he came home from work that day. When he left for work in the morning, K was still sleeping in his bed. He is the one who found K's cold body..... All the way until the funeral, my eldest son cried furiously screaming, "Poor K! Poor K!", "Why did you leave me behind? Don't leave me, K!" It broke my heart completely seeing him shaking K's casket as if he had been trying to wake his little brother up.... After their parents divorced, they, together, built a strong support system. Of course they fought sometimes, but were always there for each other. I apologized to him for their heart aches our divorce possibly caused. He said it was not my fault... After the funeral, my eldest boy went back to work, however, he seemed detached from himself. He later confessed to me he lost motivations for anything. I was terrified of the thought that...

This article was originally posted on September 20, 2011🍀 March 30, 2011 Around 6:00pm that day, I had a dream while I was napping in the house. My husband, daughter, eldest son, ex-husband, his mother (K's grandmother) and his girlfriend, and I are together with K who appears grade school aged. Everyone is surprised that K is alive. When I reach out to hug him, he comes between me and his big brother, and asks me to kiss him on the cheek. I say to K, "Your dad is here too, he is right behind you!" Little school aged K, with a vulnerable smile, hugs me hard as if he was trying to console me. I am crying and calling his name, "K! K!!!" After a pause, he says, "My grandmother is feeling very lonely...." As soon as I woke up with my heart racing, the phone rang. It was from my eldest boy. I said to him with excitement, "I just had a dream of K!" And, shortly after that, I called my ex-husband's girlfriend because K's words were worrying...

This article was originally posted on September 20th, 2011 🍀 March 29th, 2011 , was K's Shiju Kunichi (On the 49th Day, in Japan,  deceased are believed to depart from this world and enter into the land of God ). We held his Shiju Kunichi memorial service a bit earlier, so I spent the day doing nothing special. I felt very lonely and sad thinking K's spirit would finally leave this world and travel back to the other world...  My biggest worry was whether he could go to heaven or not. There is Stigma in Japan, too, that those who ended their own lives may not go to heaven.  Although K showed me so many miracles, I still was worried for him. In the evening, I went out for errands, and saw..... Beautiful Sun Rays beaming through the clouds! The breathtakingly beautiful sky soothed me but at the same time, I mourned for him and said to myself, "Awww, K must have finally gone  back to that sky.... Isn't his spirit by my side anymore?" Later that night, my eldest boy c...