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This article was originally posted on September 2, 2011 🍀




We were all very sad beyond words, of course, but my oldest boy was suffering the most. He was the one who found K’s body in the house.....

In bed that night, he trembled all night holding my hand tightly.


He said to me,  “I can’t close my eyes. I see flashbacks when I do”. He stayed up through the night crying out, “Poor K! I am so sorry, K!.” His words crushed my heart.


I,too, did not sleep at all that night


The sun rose, I opened bedroom curtains behind a balcony.


Snow! Everything was covered with snow!


Kansai region where I live seldom gets snow.

In fact, it had been several years since the last snow.


As I looked at the beautiful snow scene from my 8th floor balcony,

my heart started feeling like being reset.


Actually, this was the beginning of the signs from K in heaven.


My eldest boy woke up much later and saw the snow.

He immediately said, “This is K! K showed us the snow! He told me, after his recent trip, he was looking forward to go snowboarding with me next time. He wanted me to see the snow!”


He broke down and sobbed.






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